My life, of late

A sample:

Monday
Get up at 6:30 a.m.
Get to the kids at 7:30 a.m.
Finish with the kids at 8:45 a.m.
Come home
Sleep
Laundry, groceries, etc.

Tuesday
Get up at 6:30 a.m.
Get to the kids at 7:30 a.m.
Finish with the kids at 8:45 a.m.
Come home
Nap til 12:15 p.m.
Restaurant (office) from 2 p.m.-6 p.m.
Restaurant (hostess) 6:30 p.m.-9:30 p.m. (appx.)
Come home
Unwind
Sleep

Wednesday
Get up at 6:30 a.m.
Get to the kids at 7:30 a.m.
Finish with the kids at 8:45 a.m.
Come home
Nap til 12:15 p.m.
Restaurant (office) from 1:30 p.m.-6:30 p.m.
Restaurant (hostess) from 7 p.m.-10:30 p.m.
Come home
Unwind
Sleep

Thursday
Get up at 6:30 a.m.
Get to the kids at 7:30 a.m.
Finish with the kids at 8:45 a.m.
Come home
Nap til whenever
Tutor from 4 p.m.-5 p.m.
Restaurant (hostess) from 6:30 p.m.-10:30 p.m.
Come home
Unwind
Sleep

Friday
Get up at 6:30 a.m.
Get to the kids at 7:30 a.m.
Finish with the kids at 8:45 a.m.
Come home
Nap til 12:15 p.m.
Restaurant (office) from 2 p.m.-8 p.m.
Come home
Unwind
Sleep

Saturday
“Sleep in”
Tutor from 11 a.m.-12 p.m.
(Possibly hostess from 7 p.m. – 11 p.m.)

Sunday
Get up at 7:30 a.m.
Pasadena by 9:30 a.m.
Tour until 1:30 p.m.
Come home
Nap
(Possibly hostess from 6 p.m.-9 p.m.)

I am either at work, on my way to work, or on my way from work, and always wishing I was getting more sleep.

I don’t see much of my friends anymore, save for the ones who live 3 blocks from the restaurant, and even then, I can’t do late nights any longer because I get up so early. I am stressed out about trying to keep everything straight: Where am I going today? What did the kids do yesterday that I should remember to ask them about (e.g. soccer practice)? What parties am I planning this week and what’s happening at each one? Did I email her those pictures? Is someone coming in today to go over the menu? When is the last time I responded to reviews on Yelp? I should put something on our Twitter today. Don’t forget that backlog of filing underneath your desk. How can I help my kid learn his time tables and make long division seem less daunting? What part of the ISEE are we working on this week? What homework did I give her? Don’t forget to bring those extra examples of how to simplify radicals! Hope the people on the tour don’t ask me questions about Pasadena that I can’t answer because I have had absolutely zero time to research why the architecture on that building looks that way…

And that’s to say nothing of my thoughts on why I’m doing all of this to begin with.

I’m not complaining because I am grateful to be employed, I’m just tired and this is hard and I wonder if it will be worth it.

“The sign of intelligence is that you are constantly wondering. Idiots are always dead sure about every damn thing they are doing in their life.”
-Vasudev

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About J.

A former twentysomething with a head full of curls and heart full of questions wondering: when we get to nirvana, will there be food?
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2 Responses to My life, of late

  1. Emily DePauw says:

    Dude, you’re going through a lot and i TOTALLY get it. I miss you. So, to hang out, I need to go to your work???

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