Sometimes you don’t sleep because that’s just how things are now and so you’re exhausted and you’ve found a new reason to be upset about that thing that happened at the end of the year and inexplicably your foot hurts but you’re wearing boots anyway because your pedicure is atrocious and you battle through traffic to get to the other side of town to go to work, only you get there and it looks like maybe they moved but you ring the doorbell twice anyway and when there’s no answer you drive down the street to where you get signal so that you can call and find out what’s going on and when you get a call back a few minutes later it’s the matriarch of the family telling you that her mother-in-law who has cancer has taken a turn for the worst and they’ve decided to stop treatment so she’s sorry she forgot to cancel with you so you forget about your foot and the fatigue and phone call you never got because it’s almost been a year since your own grandfather died and you’re just so sad for them and what they’re going through and it’s the one year anniversary of the earthquake in Haiti and maybe the world should just be a little less terrible all the time and damn it all you’re going home and back to sleep.